invictus’ den

NOTE: For better understanding, it would require a prereading of Adrian A.’s EXODUS blog… (aa in my friendster friend list)

Yeah, pal, EXODUS is inevitable… and many things changed since you wrote this… many do proceed in ‘next level of formation.” And I’m one of those… onlt that I left before it would end….

Admittedly, I am not as happy and carefree (was I) as before… Don’t you say I regretted my decision for I firmly and honestly say otherwise… Life has just change in a kind that I cannot explain… I like the way it is though… there are mements here in the outside world where I simply wonder at what one is capable of doing and wander at the thought of those thoughts… There are simply moments where disturbance in my serene self find it’s place… Wheew!!!

Very much… I miss my seminary days… but part of my exodus is to endure the scorching heat of the sun, of the thirst in the desert, of everything else whatsoever… But hey, wasn’t I prepared before this sojourn? Were the people I was with haven’t told me enough what would it took me in that exodus? Well, things are as not well as one picture it to be… but neither is it as gloomy…

I remember a spiritual reading book (Little Monk) in my Maryshore years where one ask, “When will God make me strong?” and where one answers, “He has started already, you have to endure such pains first.” They really make sense to me now…
Life is worth embracing with all its bluffs and blows… every experience good and bad…

Despite everything, i remain to be positive. Remember what the butterfly endured in its cocoon? Or how on earth do we get those precious pearls? Yes, through much pains and sufferings…

I don’t suffer much yet but the human in me is telling me I am not in such genuine happiness… and that’s a good thing… I shall know what should I look for as my days unfold….

“One will never know how it is in the highest mountain, unless he has been in the deepest valley.”
- Richard Nixon

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